For many years I was an invalid. My sufferings were...

For many years I was an invalid. My sufferings were both mental and physical, but the healing of mental anguish was far more to me than the healing of physical ills. All these years I had not only been under the care of doctors, but never out of their hands, as my case necessitated long stays in different sanitariums for those who were mentally affected; and it was while I was in one of these institutions that Christian Science was brought to me.

I was in constant fear,—afraid to live and afraid to die, afraid of light and of darkness, of everything around me and of everybody, especially of myself; but above all I was afraid of God. The treatment I had been under consisted of much drugging, including the taking of opiates to relieve my mental condition, also my bodily pains, and I took sleeping-drafts regularly every night. I had been treated by hypnotism also, which left me much worse than I had been before. Previous to the other treatment I had been under faith-healing, receiving the "unction of oil" three times a day on my head (in order to heal my brain, it was said), and my not recovering was accounted for by the faith-healer as the consequence of some sin which my family had committed and which God would not forgive.

I had been under well-known specialists, and on more than one occasion was forbidden to read religious books, even the Bible being taken away from me. In addition to my mental miseries I was suffering from the result of a fall which occurred during my stay at a sanitarium, and for this I had received massage and every form of medical treatment for eighteen months. I was walking on crutches, and the doctors could give me no hope of recovery unless I had an operation, which I so much dreaded that it seemed better to remain a cripple.

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October 26, 1912
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