Relationships ! It seemed we were always breaking up and getting back together. Finally, after seven years, my boyfriend and I decided to go our separate ways. I felt very depressed and so I turned wholeheartedly to God, searching for a deeper, clearer understanding of love.

In studying the Bible and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, I found divine Love. I discovered that this Love is not temporary, but secure and invariable because it is another name for God. I realized that God always loves me and that I could express more of God's love in my human relationships. This enabled me to get my human will and personal attachment out of the way. I surrendered to the spiritual fact that I was always expressing Love and that I was always being loved by God. With that clearer sense of Love, the better human relationships followed. My boyfriend and I were able to solve our differences, and I am now so grateful to have a very harmonious, nurturing, loving marriage to this man.

Also, the study of Christian Science has brought freedom into my life. During high school and college, my compulsiveness with food had me locked up in a prison. It seemed I was always going on a diet and very concerned about my figure. After nine years of overeating and dieting, I began to wonder if I'd ever find release from this obsession with food and body.

Finally I turned to the study of Christian Science for answers. The first step toward healing was the most difficult for me: admitting that I was committing a sin by being unloving and even destructive to myself, and allowing myself to be controlled by my appetite. Once I was honest and recognized that I was actually sinning against God—worshiping a power other than Him—the healing followed.

My uncontrollable human appetites were healed through prayer, and I found greater spiritual nourishment. In studying the Bible, I found that substantial fulfillment doesn't come from food; it, too, comes from God, divine Love. I learned that Love enriches, calms, and nourishes. Realizing this, I was led to move into a position where I could help others. Through this I found genuine, lasting fulfillment. When the temptation to binge would come, I'd open my thought more to divine Love's presence.

A helpful assurance from the Bible was from Luke. It reads, "Consider the lilies how they grow: they toil not, they spin not; and yet I say unto you, that Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. If then God so clothe the grass, which is to-day in the field, and to-morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink .... But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom" (12:27–29, 31, 32).

Basing my thoughts on this promise, rather than on materiality, I have found complete, permanent freedom from eating disorders. This peace is priceless to me, and I am so very grateful!

June Louks
Pacific Palisades, California