It was fear and despondency that caused me to cry out...

Adelia Gilliam Morgan

It was fear and despondency that caused me to cry out for God and, after years of wandering, to find Him in Christian Science. I was not very well bodily, but such ailments as I had were more bearable than the mental depression. This was so from my earliest remembrance, though from no visible reason. I had home, kind parents, brothers, sisters, friends; but I was restless, unsatisfied, and longed for something I could not find. The words of the Psalm were often in my thought, "As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God."

I was brought up an orthodox minister's daughter, and tried very hard to find God as others felt they had, but could not, and at times I feard that the doctrine of predestination explained my inability to reach Him. As I grew older I became skeptical. I could se evil, sorrow, sin, hardship, but could not see God, could not find Him. I wondered, and questioned, Where is He?

I was miserable, but after a while I grew more prayerful, more softened, and then "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures" came to my notice, and surely in answer to my earnest longing.

When I began to read this book I knew I had found the way to God. I had no doubt of this, and although I felt a great distance from Him, I knew I had found the path leading to God, and the book was very sweet. Early in my study of Christian Science I was healed of chronic constipation, from which three physicians had been unable to give me any permanent relief.

My struggle with fear, pride, heartache, and other evil bestments, has been long and kept me at work, and often mortal mind has whispered, "It is no use." I could see nothing behind me and a seemingly inaccessible height in front, but I have caught a glimpse of Truth, and in moments of darkness I have declared Truth's eternal presence until I could rise higher, and know that His presence is everywhere and the absence of God is only a wrong belief.

To-day, yea always now, I feel the presence of Love encamping round about me, for error's voice is ceasing to be real to me; fears are being overcome, and I am seeing and knowing Him, God, good, in whom I have believed.

My little girl, aged nine and a half years, knows nothing of material remedies. She reads and applies the teachings of Science and Health earnestly. She is latterly getting at the handling of sin,—is struggling with the temptation to return evil for evil. She sees that thoughts of hate cause physical and other ills, and she is working well, and winning. I feel very grateful for this, for with the aid of Christian Science the problem of bringing up a child in the way it should go is solving itself, as the rules are obeyed.

Class teaching, which I have been blessed in taking this year, has lifted some heavy stones for me, as I have worked to bring out what I was taught. I am very thankful for this teaching.

I know that I cannot be too earnest in learning what our beloved Leader is working to give us, and I pray that I may see how to follow her guidance in the most direct way.

I am very thankful for the Concordance to "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures." It is a great help, and our Church Manual is teaching me to know and apply better the meaning of the Golden Rule, hence better obedience. For these things and much more I thank Christian Science with all my heart.

Mrs. Adelia Gilliam Morgan, Los Angeles, Cal.

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