Chronic depression healed

Have you ever wondered why you exist, whether you have a purpose, or if you’re just an accident of biology, carried along on the winds of chance? I have. One summer day when I was about seven years old, I suddenly became acutely aware of myself as a conscious being and asked God, Why does there have to be a “me”?  

The Bible tells us that God said, “Let us make man in our image, after our likeness” (Genesis 1:26) and “Ye are my witnesses . . . and my servant whom I have chosen” (Isaiah 43:10). This being what, who, and how we really are, we need to know who and what God is if we would understand who and what we are as His witnesses, His likeness.

Mary Baker Eddy, the Discoverer and Founder of Christian Science and author of Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, was a lifelong, devoted student of the Bible, and she found in the Bible seven synonyms (some mentioned directly and others implied) that define God’s nature and our nature as His likeness: Mind, Soul, Spirit, Life, Truth, Love, and Principle. These terms are capitalized throughout her writings as names for God. This expanded understanding of God leads to the healing of all types of problems and ills resulting from fear, sin, or ignorance of the nature of God and man.

For years after that childhood query regarding my existence, I suffered from chronic depression, suicidal thoughts, and lack of self-worth. After I was married and had children, the depressing thoughts and feelings seemed to escalate. I did not even feel capable of praying as I had always done in Christian Science.

Breaking down in tears one day, I told my husband how I felt. Although he is not a student of Christian Science, he called my mother, knowing that she, as a Christian Scientist, would be able to help me. I have always been grateful that he made that call. Christian Science had been effective in healing me of so many other ills during my lifetime, and I felt relief that she and my father would be praying for me. 

After a few weeks I could feel the uplifting effect of their prayers and began to be able to pray for myself. An increased knowledge and understanding of God and man, gained through daily study of the Bible and Science and Health, showed me that I am vital to God’s creation and to His full self-expression. I saw that like all His children, I have value and purpose, am necessary, and am meant to live happily and productively. 

I turned from the belief that I was a depressed, worthless, sinful, and suicidal mortal, and claimed my pure likeness to God. Within a few months of this turning point, I knew I was healed. The chronic despair, darkness, and unhappiness have never returned.

Through the study and practice of Christian Science, I was able to recognize that I am a deliberate creation of God, divine Mind and Love. I am as necessary to God and His creation as is the numeral 7 to the science of mathematics, or as middle C is to the science of music. We all are.

Our loving Father-Mother God needs each one of us, as we also need Him. In Science and Health Eddy writes: “If God, who is Life, were parted for a moment from His reflection, man, during that moment there would be no divinity reflected. The Ego would be unexpressed, and the Father would be childless,—no Father” (p. 306).

I am continuing to learn who and what I am as God’s own likeness, and it’s a joyous, fulfilling experience. We all have been given an eternity of joyful, productive living, loving, and spiritually reflecting God. We are loved. We are valued. And we are necessary.

Constance Watkins
Paducah, Kentucky, US

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