For a number of years I suffered from a feeling of deep depression and isolation just before and during the Christmas holidays. I dreaded seeing the decorations go up.
I had prayed for myself off and on. But several years ago I decided to call a Christian Science practitioner to pray with me in dealing with this problem. One day I was reading the book of John in the Bible, and came to the part that tells about Jesus healing a man who was lying by a pool (see 5:1-17). This man had been incapacitated for 38 years and was waiting for the water in the pool to be agitated. This was supposed to signal that the next person who stepped into the pool would be healed.
I could feel the touch of the healing Christ.
When Jesus asked the man if he wanted to be healed, he answered, "Sir, I have no man, when the water is troubled, to put me into the pool: but while I am coming, another steppeth down before me." The Bible says Jesus told him, "Rise, take up thy bed, and walk." And the man did.
I thought to myself, for 38 years this man must have felt he was completely alone, without anyone to help him. I realized that I was also believing that I had been left out while other people received the blessings I longed for. What loneliness, isolation, and futility! Then I felt such great compassion for that man at the pool, and knew that like him, I could feel the touch of the healing Christ.
I could see that instead of depending on a person, a place, or anything material to bring freedom or healing, I could turn to thoughts of God to bring me peace, regeneration, and healing. When I saw that my spiritual identity had always been with God, who is divine Love, I understood that I'd been made spiritually whole and complete. The feeling of depression and isolation lifted, and it has never returned.
I am so grateful for all the blessings and healings that I have received during the years from my study of Christian Science.