Are you limiting your supply of good?
Some years ago I had an experience that showed me the importance of letting go of a limited, material view of life in order to trust spiritual goodness. I had been challenged for several years with lack and poverty. The various jobs I had held just never seemed to meet anything more than my most basic needs. I was convinced that if I could just find a good job, I would have everything I needed. On several occasions, I was able to find employment through prayer. Yet, I drifted along, not really satisfied, and certain that my life would always be impoverished.
Then, something happened that caused me to really examine my thinking: I became a parent, and I realized I did not want to accept limitation for my child, even if I was willing to accept it for myself. I then began a deep spiritual study with the thought that I would overcome the suggestion of lack once and for all. I read everything I could find on the subject from the pastor of the Church of Christ, Scientist—the Bible and Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy; I also read other writings by Mrs. Eddy and various articles about supply and employment from the Christian Science periodicals.
Christ Jesus’ words, “Where your treasure is, there will your heart be also” (Matthew 6:21 ), pointed me to the practicality of valuing and seeking the things of the Spirit, implying that what is truly important and satisfying will then be demonstrated in the minutiae of our lives.
I needed to let go of outlining where my supply would come from.
Little by little, I realized I had put limitations on two important needs—employment and supply—and thus had abandoned a genuine trust in God’s abundant goodness and care. Christian Science explains: “The Scriptures inform us that man is made in the image and likeness of God. Matter is not that likeness. The likeness of Spirit cannot be so unlike Spirit. Man is spiritual and perfect; and because he is spiritual and perfect, he must be so understood in Christian Science. Man is idea, the image, of Love; he is not physique. He is the compound idea of God, including all right ideas; …” (Science and Health, p. 475 ). If God is unlimited good, as the Scriptures imply, then man—as the compound idea of God—includes all good, including right employment and abundant supply. I began to understand that as a complete idea of God, I include all good.
In order to feel God’s divine abundance in my life, I knew I also needed to let go of outlining or prescribing where my supply would come from. According to divine Science, “Soul has infinite resources with which to bless mankind, and happiness would be more readily attained and would be more secure in our keeping, if sought in Soul” (Science and Health, p. 60 ). As long as I looked to a job or any specific source other than Soul, God, for my income, I limited my access to the infinite possibilities of good.
As I awakened to God as the source of all good, I saw that I needed to be grateful for all the good in my life. I realized that I was resentful of and indifferent to the good that I already had. I had income in the form of a monthly stipend I received for caring for a relative, but instead of being grateful for this, I resented the fact that I seemed to need it to meet my needs. So, one idea I prayed with was that God’s infinite supply of spiritual ideas would always be enough to meet my needs. I realized that since God is the source of all that is real and good, He supplies whatever the need demands. I saw that supply isn’t primarily about money, food, housing, or any material thing; supply is about the qualities needed to express completeness—and God both demands these and supplies them.
God’s infinite supply of spiritual ideas would always be enough to meet my needs.
Each revelation increased my trust in God’s goodness and provision, and gratitude and joy replaced worry and limitation. I woke to the realization that my real purpose or employment was and always would be to magnify or express God, and that this could never include any period of unemployment. Interestingly, my efforts to resolve these issues “once and for all” did come to fruition, but not in the way I expected. I had thought that if I really understood the true, spiritual nature of employment and supply, I would never have any more challenges with either. I did have some challenges after that, but each provided further unfoldment of my confidence in God’s loving care, which had become the foundation of my thinking once and for all. As I strove to be useful, regardless of the amount of remuneration I received, my life became more joyful, and more opportunities for service appeared. Also, my income did increase, and I found I could confidently do more things with my expendable income.
This experience has enriched my view of God and increased my dependence on Him, and for this I am very grateful. I am encouraged that those who seek God first will find their needs met.