Earlier this year, for a period of several weeks I found myself waking up in the middle of the night filled with fear—worries about my future and fears about various problems. I would be unable to calm my thought or pray. And despite feeling very tired, I would be unable to fall asleep again for several hours.
These restless nights made it difficult to be alert and energized during the day. I knew I needed to find a way to replace worried thoughts with calm ones and get back to resting peacefully—and prayer was the obvious way forward.
In my study of Mary Baker Eddy’s life and writings, I came across this quote from her autobiography: “... if you fall asleep, actually conscious of the truth of Christian Science,—namely, that man’s harmony is no more to be invaded than the rhythm of the universe,—you cannot awake in fear or suffering of any sort” (Retrospection and Introspection, p. 61). This reassured me that prayer would furnish the peace I was seeking. Putting this into action would mean removing from my thought whatever was unlike God, setting aside fears, and trusting God’s infinite protection.
I began praying each night to let go of all ungodlike thoughts, and to quiet myself with the assurance of God’s omnipotence in my experience.
After just a few nights of praying this way, I ceased waking up in the middle of the night and was able to sleep peacefully and wake up refreshed and full of good thoughts. On the occasional night since then when I do wake up, my mind is always peaceful, and I can easily turn to thoughts of God’s love as I quickly go back to sleep.
Washington, DC, US
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