Some years ago I found myself in a tough situation. I was hooked on marijuana and feeling guilty, sad, and lost. I realized that what I was doing was immoral and would not bring lasting satisfaction. I also knew from my study of Christian Science that God is the only true source of happiness, and that man, God’s spiritual idea, reflects only purity and goodness.
To regain my sense of worth and happiness, I saw that I must get back onto the path indicated by Jesus’ example. The Bible tells us that before taking the most difficult step of his career, the progressive step that God was pointing out to him, Jesus prayed humbly, “Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done” (Luke 22:42). That was how I prayed—to yield to God’s will and let Him guide me forward.
Despite my shame and reluctance to talk about the addiction, my growing desire to be free of it eventually led me to call a Christian Science practitioner for metaphysical treatment. She didn’t judge me. Rather, she began to “pour in truth through flood-tides of Love,” which Mary Baker Eddy says is the way to remove error from mortal mind (Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, p. 201). I don’t remember everything we discussed or all the ideas I prayed with, but I do remember feeling so relieved and loved. I knew that reaching out for prayerful help was the right decision, and it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
Over the course of three days, I was quickly healed. I felt a mental and physical change and was freed from any desire to get high. I was also released from guilt and self-condemnation, which I saw could never come from God. My relationship with God was renewed and strengthened, and I felt joyful and buoyant with hope. I also knew this feeling of goodness and purity that washed over me could never end because it was sustained by God, divine Love.
This healing left me with a deeper trust in God’s goodness and care for man. I had wakened from the gray, foggy doldrums of matter-based thinking and was led, as a friend of mine likes to say, to “get more radical”—to get spiritually sharp and focused. Looking more closely at what the Bible and the writings of Mary Baker Eddy teach, I could see that a material sense of life and the fleeting pleasure it seems to offer are ultimately one big lie. I felt convinced that lasting good could only come from God, Spirit, and that nothing God gives could result in harmful side effects, either. I could see that God’s love includes the joy, bliss, and spiritual understanding we all yearn for. That was a powerful epiphany for me.
Along with the mental, physical, and moral healing I experienced, I was inspired to make changes in my life and work. During the following six months, I started to try and do new things that were more spiritually based, which led to a new job in a different area of the country. With my upgraded thought, I had also gained an entirely clean slate.
I’m deeply grateful for this healing, for Christ Jesus’ example, and for Mary Baker Eddy’s discovery of Christian Science. I know now without a doubt that this Science, based on Jesus’ example, truly impels us to know God, divine Love, as the source of all good and our protector from all danger and evil.
Waltham, Massachusetts, US
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