Seeing the “God of justice”
Over a period of a few days in 2020, I noticed I was seeing dizzying flashes of light at night and hovering fuzziness out of one eye during the day.
I remembered that my husband had complained of a similar condition several months before when he said he felt something was interfering with his sight. I encouraged him to shut his eyes and pray with the twenty-third Psalm. I then immediately prayed to know what was true about his being in God—that he was a spiritual idea, not a mortal being in an imperfect and aging material body, separated from his divine Principle, God. I earnestly stayed with these truths, and he dozed for about half an hour, and then got up and said he felt fine. There was no recurrence, and until I experienced something similar, I had completely forgotten about this.
Conversations with acquaintances who had undergone various surgeries came to mind. Hearing these accounts, I had felt, a bit smugly, that I was so glad I didn’t need to have these experiences. Now I realized I needed to see as false the belief that anybody—whether they practice Christian Science or not—could be vulnerable to the claims of aging. I saw the truth that Spirit, God, creates and maintains man (all of us) and that therefore man is entirely free from vulnerability to any claim of disease.
At this time I had been reading through Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy, and I had a moment of concern that I might not be able to continue to the end. I thought of Mrs. Eddy’s words, “Whatever it is your duty to do, you can do without harm to yourself” (Science and Health, p. 385), and decided not to be fearful about straining my eyes by continuing to read. I recognized that reading this textbook was a duty, not in the sense of a chore, but of a debt of gratitude to Mrs. Eddy for writing it—and to God for being the source of the ideas it contained. This gratitude eased my fear, and I resolved to keep reading.
Several of the passages I had recently read stood out. I read again: “Every law of matter or the body, supposed to govern man, is rendered null and void by the law of Life, God. Ignorant of our God-given rights, we submit to unjust decrees, and the bias of education enforces this slavery” (pp. 380–381). And also, “It is man’s moral right to annul an unjust sentence, a sentence never inflicted by divine authority” (p. 381). I realized that because God’s law of justice is a law of health, goodness, and joy, I had the right—and the tools in Science—to “annul” this unjust sentence about my own eyesight.
Those thoughts were powerful and encouraging. Minute by minute, I embraced the rule of divine justice, and did what I had to do that day. That evening, I was comforted by the words in the fifth verse of Hymn 590 in the Christian Science Hymnal: Hymns 430–603. I thought of the lyrics as I went to bed, and repeated them to myself whenever I woke up in the night:
The God of justice comes to save;
Let earth make melody;
For God will judge with righteousness
And rule with equity.
(Ruth Duck, Words © 1986 GIA Publications, Incorporated)
The first line seemed such a to-the-point summation of all of the passages about justice I had been reading.
At that time, I had been anxious about social justice issues that were coming to the surface in my country. I felt I could trust that God’s saving justice governs all my activities and my life, and would also lead my country and all people forward. I was ready to dismiss the false claim of imperfect vision (and anxious, worried, fearful thoughts) separate from Mind’s, God’s, own infinite, perfect, coherent plan, and to trust that God will and always does govern.
I began to accept that God’s government, God’s unerring justice—which did not mean that of a particular political party—was what I needed to be seeking and seeing.
With this realization, I no longer experienced any further issues of flashing or fragmented sight. I am very, very grateful for this healing, and for the new insights into the powerful idea that “the God of justice comes to save.”
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