One day I stood at the window in my office, looking into the garden and touching a small wound on my knuckle. I pondered the question of whether we can heal something that happened in the past but still weighs on us today. It seemed perfectly logical to me that this would be not just possible, but natural. There is only the present reality of God and His spiritual creation, and God fills this reality with His perfection, which is always whole and harmonious.
My gaze fell on the wound. Two or three years earlier I had cut myself while cooking, taken care of the cut, and gone right back to cooking. Over time, the wounded area on my thumb had become ugly, and a scab had formed that continued to grow.
The thought came to me that God does not cause accidents (see Mary Baker Eddy, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, p. 424). If that was the case, then in actuality this cut had never been a reality affecting me in the past or today; how could I know something that God doesn’t know? Seen from the standpoint of absolute reality, I could not have injured myself because God continuously governs His entire creation. So I said aloud: “Father, let me demonstrate this.”
I turned away from the window, continued my work for the day, and forgot all about the wound. Three days later, I was standing in the same place in my office, and these thoughts came back to me. I looked at my thumb, and it was completely restored to normal!
A few weeks later I had the opportunity to again demonstrate the healing of something that had happened in the past. After some time, my husband and I had rediscovered bicycling, and it was so much fun! We rode no matter what the weather was like.
During one of these tours it was pouring. Despite having rain gear, we got drenched. Before heading home, we stopped by a local bakery to get something to eat. But I hadn’t noticed that my rain gear had somehow gotten caught in my bike’s pedals, and when I got off my bike, I fell full length on the wet pavement. Everything hurt. My husband set me back on my feet, and we rode home.
That evening as I was cooking, I noticed that I couldn’t use my thumb. It was so swollen that it didn’t fit through the large handle of the kitchen scissors. I was also still freezing from our ride, and I didn’t feel at all well. So eventually I just crawled into bed. But during the night I woke up in pain. My shoulders, elbows, hips, knees, shins, and ankles all hurt, never mind my hand.
I asked myself, What do you say when someone tells you about an accident they’ve been in? Well, you say that with God, there is no such thing. When we fall, we can think of ourselves as “falling” directly into God’s arms, His love. Sadly, though, it just didn’t feel like that. Then I thought about how nothing can truly exist beyond an ever-present and Almighty God. Mrs. Eddy writes in Science and Health: “God creates all forms of reality. His thoughts are spiritual realities” (p. 513). I began to pray with this fact.
Deep in thought, I turned quietly to God in prayer. I considered the fact that, both in the moment when I fell and afterward, I had not thought or prayed very diligently. But it’s never too late to heal the past. We can free ourselves from the aftereffects of any situation by acknowledging that we were completely protected in exactly the moment when an argument, something threatening, or an accident seemed to occur. God, infinite Love, is the only reality, preventing everything unlike good.
As I continued to pray, I held to the thought that I hadn’t fallen onto the asphalt and sustained injuries, but rather, could always only be in God’s loving arms, since He fills all space. I felt this very intensely and knew that this is the only truth there is. In my consciousness, the belief in accident had yielded to the spiritual reality of God.
At some point I fell asleep. When I got up the next morning, I was completely free of pain. And my thumb had returned to its normal size and was perfectly all right.
Yes, we can heal the past, because we exist forever in the presence of God, in the center of His love. I am infinitely grateful for Christian Science.
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