Article January 1, 1998 ISSUE

“How could she?” I thought

Uta Loose

At that time our children were about two and four, we lived in an old building that was fairly cold. When the children were barefoot or without a jacket, I always said, “Watch out, dress warmly!” I was afraid they would catch cold.

This fear had developed during many years, even generations. It was a wrong assumption that catching cold in certain situations is just a rule. I was educating the children in a direction that said there is a power besides God. Because I told them, “Dress warmly—or else.”

I had heard this fear from my mother and grandmother. On the first warm days in May, my friends would come with just a light sweater to school, but I was not allowed to. I was always constricted by fears of catching cold and suffered under them.

Later I began to understand that each one of us is really spiritual, made by God. So I asked myself, “How can I possibly be dependent on the weather, and affected by cold drafts?”

With this growing understanding I became calmer. When symptoms of a cold started with me, I wasn't that afraid anymore. And also with my children, this constant worrying was gone. I have been free of colds now for years.

When I first realized I had been imprisoned by my mother's worries, I had a lot of aversion toward her. I thought, “How could she?” But now, with my healing, I'm completely on top of that. I love her very much. We get along with each other very well, and there is more sharing with each other, listening to each other, a togetherness. :)

Uta Loose
Magdeburg, Germany

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