One morning about two years ago, as I was walking to the subway on my way to work, I fell down. I badly skinned one knee, hurt my ankle a bit, and broke the fall with both my wrists. I was shaken, but I jumped up quickly and was grateful that I hadn’t been seriously harmed.
Still, the fall troubled me. I had to admit to myself that over the years I’d fallen and bumped into things a lot. This seemed to be because I was always rushing around and in a hurry.
It dawned on me that this was a state of thought that needed to be healed, no matter how long I’d been at it. With this in mind, I turned to the book I have read for many years to gain deep insight into the Bible—Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy. I’ve found healing in this book my entire life.
As I was doing some study in this book, I happened upon Mrs. Eddy’s definition of river in the Glossary, which says: “Channel of thought.
“When smooth and unobstructed, it typifies the course of Truth; but muddy, foaming, and dashing, it is a type of error” (p. 593). That really hit home with me! I had to ask myself, “What was the quality of my thought as I went about my day?”
I was feeling afraid that there might be cumulative effects from some of these mishaps, and this made me think of another quote from Mrs. Eddy in her book Retrospection and Introspection: “The human history needs to be revised, and the material record expunged” (p. 22). I saw that I needed to look at things from a spiritual perspective and realize that as a spiritual idea of God I had never been out of God’s care. He forever governs my life harmoniously. This is spiritual law, and I have certainly seen the healing effects of relying on this law many, many times.
In thinking about my past tendencies, I thought, “What does divine Mind, God, know about my past?” The answer, I realized, is that God doesn’t know me as a mortal with a past but eternally knows me as good. God can only know the perfection of His own perfect creation, so this is actually all I could ever know about myself. I reasoned that God had always been in complete control of every detail of my life, so therefore the only ongoing effect in my experience was good.
About a week after this fall, my ankle began to give me a lot of trouble. It was painful, swollen, and discolored, and the more I looked at it, the more I was afraid. Not surprisingly, both my wrists began to ache too. It was a constant battle to keep my thought uplifted and not be overwhelmed by fear.
What broke this hypnotic, fearful thinking was reading a testimony from the July 2012 issue of The Christian Science Journal. The author wrote that she had felt that something was out of place in her rib cage, which had been making it difficult to breathe. She was a new student of Christian Science but decided to go to the Wednesday evening testimony meeting at her Christian Science branch church. I found this inspiring. She must have known she was going to find healing in church.
From reading her testimony, I realized that nothing could be out of place in my true being, God’s expression, and that this truth, understood, was a law to the body. In a few moments, I went from being afraid to feeling God’s care for me. I didn’t even worry anymore about my ankle. I felt a calm yet powerful joy.
Mrs. Eddy writes in the chapter called “Genesis” in Science and Health, “To material sense, this divine universe is dim and distant, gray in the sombre hues of twilight; but anon the veil is lifted, and the scene shifts into light” (p. 513). This is exactly what happened to me—my thought did indeed shift into light. I was no longer the least bit concerned about the ankle, nor any effects of that fall or any other fall.
The swelling of my ankle began to go down right before my eyes. I got up and could walk with only a slight limp, and in another day or so there was absolutely no evidence of any injury anywhere in my body, nor a hint of pain. I was completely healed.
This healing has been regenerative and has touched every area of my life. I now am much more diligent about watching my thinking throughout the day. I also don’t rush around so much but take time to listen for God’s direction as I go.
I have to say that I have not had a single fall or bumped into anything in the two years since this healing occurred. I’ve seen the promise of Psalm 56:13: “Wilt not thou deliver my feet from falling, that I may walk before God in the light of the living?” I’ve seen from this healing that our past can be revised, and that God is always caring for us—and everyone can see this.
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