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God's love finds a way
A few years ago when I was 16, I wasn’t a very happy person. My mom has been telling me since I was young that I have a “natural light in me” that shines really bright. Right now I see that she’s right, but at that point, I felt like that light had turned off.
I was raised in a Christian Science family and had seen the countless ways that God loves each of us and heals us in times of trouble. But at the time, I wasn’t studying Christian Science. I wasn’t doing Christian Science-like things, and I was really mad at God.
I felt like God had left me by the wayside. I’ve moved a lot in my life, and all that saying goodbye to friends and trying to make new ones was something I tried to do with grace, because I figured God wanted me to. And then, after all my time and energy spent doing it the way I thought was “His way,” I didn’t matter anymore and I felt I had no more grace to give.
At the time, my family and I were living in Kenya. I didn’t like my life there—I had no friends or meaningful relationships with anyone near me. So, I decided that I should end my life. To my surprise, God foiled that plan really fast.
The thing I needed most in that moment was to know that someone, besides my family, cared about me. Just as I’d decided that my life was over, my best friend, who lived in Egypt at the time, logged onto Skype and started talking to me.
He automatically asked me what was wrong, without even saying “Hi.” When I asked him how he knew something was wrong, he told me he “just knew.” That’s when it dawned on me—that God was behind this message, showing me a friend who cared. Even though I had shooed all God’s angel messages out of my mind, God found a way to get in touch with me.
“Divine Love always has met and always will meet every human need” (Science and Health, p. 494). My need was to live and know that someone loved me. Even though at first I wouldn’t listen to God, He found the way around my stubbornness and provided me with what I needed.
I saw that I am loved always, regardless. I matter and make a difference in God’s eyes, because He made me and all His children unique and special. I couldn’t ever be irrelevant, because I’m created and tailored perfectly to be the best and only “me” there is.
From that moment on I began listening to God again and knew I needed to keep listening and to resist any depressing thoughts from then on. And I have let my light shine brightly ever since!
—Cassidy Orth-Moore, Buena Vista, Colorado, US