Last summer I was dedicated to supporting my wife through some physical challenges. This involved my getting things she needed, taking her to medical appointments, and generally supporting her in any way I could. During this time it was particularly important to me that I remain clear about what I understood as the truth about man’s being in Christian Science—and to make vigorous efforts to further clarify that understanding.
One morning during this period, I woke up and found that my vision was so blurry I couldn’t make out the time on the clock across the room. Since I had many things to do, I worked around it the best that I could. During the next week, however, the condition got progressively worse. Reading became very difficult, and when I was driving, although I was fine on the road, I started to have trouble making out some of the signs and lights.
Finally, it got to the point where I thought I might lose the ability to read and to drive. During this time I was praying with the support of a Christian Science practitioner. When I expressed to her the fear of losing these abilities, immediately she offered this comforting correction: “Let’s show it for what it is—a lie!”
One day shortly afterward, I was on the phone waiting to be connected to someone at a large hospital where my wife was receiving outpatient treatments. While on hold, I recall being impressed by the often repeated advertisement that there were “tens of thou- sands” of medical personnel supporting this facility.
I remembered that earlier the practitioner had pointed to a particular story in the Bible, that of Elisha and his servant, when the Syrian army had surrounded their city. Elisha’s servant came to him and lamented, in effect, “What are we going to do?” Elisha answered, “Fear not: for they that be with us are more than they that be with them.” He then prayed that the Lord would open his servant’s eyes, so he could see what Elisha saw. The servant then saw that “the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha” (see II Kings, chap. 6).
The relevance of this example to my situation was clear, although initially my thought was more like the servant—alarmed at the physical evidence that was being presented. I yearned for my eyes to be opened so I could see the multitude of “chariots and horses,” exemplifying God’s protection and power. I knew that my prayers, too, were supported by “tens of thousands,” and more, of angel thoughts.
Although the condition persisted, I continued to listen to the audio version of the Christian Science Bible Lesson, and wrote and read as much as I was able. One day after two or three weeks had gone by, I felt that it was no longer safe for me to be driving, even though my wife needed to be at appointments during the coming two days. We decided to ask my daughter, who agreed to come and drive us.
During one lengthy testing appointment, I was offered the opportunity to be in the room with my wife. We periodically heard very loud noises that accompanied the testing. Happily, during this time I was able to quiet my thought and affirm and realize the spiritual truth about the situation. There in the room, I felt and saw that God was governing all that was going on, and that His good and harmonious government included my daughter waiting for us, the people doing the testing, my wife, and me. The “still small voice” of the divine Comforter was heard, even above the loud noises. After that day, I slowly began to gain a sense of confidence in my prayers, and the cloudy vision began to lessen.
That was the turning point for me. Over the next several weeks, my vision gradually and steadily improved. Finally, one morning I remember getting into the car and clearly seeing the vivid greens and deep browns of the trees, and the gorgeous blue sky. I said, “Hallelujah!” out loud, in gratitude for the freedom and stronger sense of vision that I had gained.
Amherst, New Hampshire, US